***
Love is a messy
thing. Love is a fucking messy thing. I’ve never been in love with nobody until
he came. And I remember I didn’t expect nothing to happen ‘cause I wasn’t
attracted to him, but I guess life is a messy thing after all and I got tossed
by a lightning. He was that lightning.
I won’t say
I didn’t enjoy him, because he was, I think, one of the most marvelous experiences
I’ve ever had. But the thing is that it was extremely painful, even when I
thought things were going right.
I guess I
loved him. Like, for the very first time, I felt that I belonged to someone and
that someone belonged to me. And I pretty think that was one of the most unique
feelings in the world, and it really fills you, and it really makes you feel
happy and excited and… alive.
Then shit
happened. And he ripped off himself from my life by making that shit happen. I
believe that I have never ever felt so fucking badly in my whole life. I
thought I wasn’t worthy, and that I pretty much deserved every single bad thing
that happened to me. I thought that, then, death would be something like that
hell where I was living.
And I was
probably wrong, but in that moment I hardly believed it and it wasn’t OK, but
it was real. Even if I didn’t like it. I hated it. But it was real, and it was
happening.
Months have
passed and my heart still jumps into my chest when I hear your name or I see
your face. And it’s still painful. And it makes me feel sick and desperate and
alone. ‘Cause I would be lying if I say that I don’t miss you every single day.
And I would be lying if I say I don’t see you in the stars or the night sky. It’s
really annoying, but I can’t get rid of you, even if I try. I can’t help it.
So I think
I’m still here. Not for you, ‘cause I think you’ve forgotten me. I’m still here for
the guy you were once. That sweet kid with rogue smile that knew how to steal a
heart.
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Cosmic Love - Florence and The Machine
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2EIeUlvHAiM
